I’m not sure how to go about this other than explain my story.
Me and my ex broke up over fighting too much. Not anything else, but I get irritated with him a lot and he really doesn’t fufill my needs or wants but he is a sweetheart. We’ve been seeing each other for over 6month continuously and when we broke up I just felt as though I shouldn’t have let him go. I was in pain and I didn’t understand why so I thought to myself that I really did love him(which i still feel) but I think its more of a best friend than anything…. I told him after I come back to Italy i’d tell him whether we were officially together or not. The thing is, I don’t really want to be in a relationship. I like being single, but I know I can’t have both. I have a lot going on for me…My life is amazing and I just don’t know what to do with this part. I’m afraid if I leave, it might be a mistake but on the other hand I think it will be refreshing.
my real question is:
What do you do with an ex boyfriend you’re still seeing and love, and you don’t know how to let go of him? He really loves you back and there is certainly nothing really wrong with him, but you are his everything but you guys just don’t match in the right of ways?
That’s not really a question anyone can answer but yourself, but a few thoughts might help. :) Personally, I regret not being independent in my life when I had the chance. Unlike you, I probably decided not to go abroad because of this boy or that boy, no matter how much I wanted to go. I didn’t follow my dreams because I tied myself down a lot.
I don’t know how old you are, but I found that no matter how important or dramatic a relationship seemed at the time, the love and the pain will pass and you’ll find things more suited for you as time goes by. Then again, sometimes you say you’ll love someone you can’t have forever and it actually turns out to be true, but you’ll go through many changes in the way you relate, and it can be quite beautiful.
I say do what you feel you need to do FOR YOURSELF. Always be selfish. Your boy will be ok, even if he’s sad for awhile. You can stay friends even if you have to avoid each other for awhile. Just be honest with him and honest with yourself and don’t let anyone hold you back. There’s so much life left and you can’t possibly guess how things will turn out. I’ve always been surprised.
dear boys i know: cut your hair.
that is all.
Iris: Dear boys I know - grow your hair and beards! <3
You may not know but I have a men-in-tears-and-pain-fetish. Jack makes fun of me for it but I bet you have one too. Isn’t it wonderful to see men cry? Best thing ever. All that would make these better is some fake blood. Hah.
<3 JK. Not as charming as the 90’s stuff but way better quality and technically a better performance. One of my favorite Jamiroquai songs.
It’s Mr Moon who plays in tune,
Mr Moon who knows
And if it’s Mr. Moon who gives the sign then that’s the sign that goes,
I never know what to do till I’m there with you….
Gorillaz with Zeng Zhen performing “Hong Kong”. Love this song. Perfect for Seattle in November.
Blur - Clover Over Dover
One of my many favorite Blur songs.
Polar Bear Club - Our Ballads
Admittedly I’m still new to Polar Bear Club, but loving it. Just ran into this song that hit me like a freight train - it almost made me cry like a little girl.
GO BUY THEIR MUSIC NOW: http://www.myspace.com/polarbearclub
What struck me about this is how it reflects my own journey. I used to be the Lawyer, feeling that all these male bands used screaming to exclude me - to be macho - I felt abstractly as though they were yelling at me, and I wasn’t allowed to participate in this boys’ club thing. Not even getting into bands like Archenemy and other female screamers, I’ve completely changed my mindset, to the point where I want to learn to scream too. The bands I love scream and yell because it’s a powerful expression of emotion. And I feel that now. But to hear a guy say that he never meant to exclude us - that the girls he knows are right there with him - that’s some powerful solidarity right there.
‘Round the corner from me lives a lawyer-rocker age 53
He’s got two kids, both girls.
23 and 17 you know they mean the world to him.
But Mr. Lawyer, he’s not the point. He heard my band
And had to give an account of what he liked and what he hated,
Mentioned we alienated girls from boys.
You see I was angry, I was crushed and I know these words
Just wont be enough.
And I’ll come home at night and crawl in my bed so cold
And rest will never come.
When I scream, it certainly isn’t for machismo.
Not intimidation or gender segregation
I just needed more from the words I sang but you can’t understand.
So you’re saying that a female only listens to ballads and love songs?
The girls that I know wouldn’t think so.
But according to you our songs should separate all the girls from the boys.
Going to see The Used today heckyes! Man this video is really weird. Less cute than the last album somewhat. :)
Jack and I were seriously disappointed last night. The last time I was at El Corazon it was to see Billy Talent, and I’ve never seen so much crowd or band energy in my entire life. I think I posted the story - it was AMAZING.
Last night at El Corazon we went to see Saosin. We were going to get there “early” to see InnerPartySystem. The show started at 7 and there were 5 bands. We got there at 10:30 and Saosin was ALREADY playing. So that sucked. We easily found a spot at the edge of the stage. About 10 people in the front were raising their pointers, but 95% of the crowd was just standing there… maybe 30% were nodding their heads, 10% were making fun of or talking stink about the band.
The band itself was playing great music - really really intense stuff, the stuff that I love about Saosin’s recordings. The singer, Anthony Green, was doing something (it’s impossible to hear the vocals in that place unless you’re in the center, even with their Pac Sun tour audio gear set up), but he didn’t seem to care at all. No energy. Kept walking around the back of the stage, sighing.
I dunno what the deal was. Maybe they’re a great show - maybe they’re tired, or or on a shitty tour, or playing too early to kids that are too young, or maybe the lady at Subway pissed them off. But seriously, Mr. Green came off as a might arrogant and the rest of the band, great drummer, great music, also just seemed to be there against their will. The crowd was held hostage by the shitty vibe.
Jack’s impression was that, “this is a manufactured band on a manufactured tour”.
I will say there was one pretty great moment when the song “You’re Not Alone” came on - one of my favorites. He got the crowd to sing back-up and jump and raise their hands - it was great. If the whole show had had that kind of energy, we would have been halfway towards having a great time.
When a show is not a show. What a bummer. Here’s to going to see THE USED this Friday! I’ve never seen them but I’m positive that it’s going to be a fantastic show with passionate people on both sides of the stage.
polar bear club has become this weird little entity within the punk world where lots of kids love them (for reasons unknown to me) but they remain a bands-band and put out some of the best rock music these days.
and yes, i think just the tag “rock” suits them well, lately.
i totally did not dig this band til they got huge. i probably have a funny tape from high school floating around of jimmy’s old bands.. i wonder if those would go on ebay for some $$$$!? j/k j/k.
honestly, i love everything theyve done, every member. tamiroff, achilles, old PBC. my old band was lucky enough to play PBCs first show on a tour in Rochester. even then i knew they had something going on.
heck yes.
Two of the members - Nate and Emmett, used to be in what will probably remain my favorite and most inspiring band of all time, Marathon. I’ve dug Polar Bear Club here and there in the past but I didn’t realize that they were getting bigger (big enough to have a nice video). CHEERS GUYS! Man, I’ve been in such nostalgia for the Rochester music, lately. Dreaming of Steele’s that horrible place.
Seeing these guys on Friday the 13th EFF YES!!! I have a huge crush on Bert McCracken. Not my favorite track but for some reason there aren’t many good Used videos on YouTube.
Had the urge to see these again so watched em with Jaxn this week. Everyone was right - The Prestige is a lot better and perfect if you’re looking for a “wow that was effed up” movie. However! If you’re looking to woo woo over a cute boy for a movie, The Illusionist is clearly the sexyromantic choice. :D Mmmm Edward Norton with a mild accent and sad eyes… droooool. Prestige also has less re-watch value, unless like me, you forget plots as they happen.
